MY MEMORIES OF 2009! HAPPY NEW YEAR..

Its 31st..9pm.. I had a good day..had a nice time with family. I got finished up with exams yesterday only,so i am relaxed too :) I have got a week off from college..its good to be home after exmas!! I am sitting with myself(main aur meri tanhayi ;) ),waiting for some friend's call. Lost in my thoughts.. The year is ending..2009.. Probably,i wont forget this year. Though every year brings something different but this brought some big changes..in me..for me..for the people close to me. PEOPLE SAY that there is no use remembering the past..BUT WHY NOT..when i have the time PLUS i can TEST MY MEMORY!! January started with competitions,XAT,FMS..(the only hopes left after CAT!) CAT result and that wait for the calls.. Then the big break after exams;no more quant,english or di! BUT the interview questions and GD topics, detailed news and articles, magazines and net..ooohh,i even started making notes of the news!!! Sometimes i still read those..THE SATYAM SCANDLE and THE CHANDRAYAN..shame and the pride. Then,went to Gwalior to my aunt's place,had fun with cousin :). Mum also got a week free to enjoy with her sister.. MELA n SHOPPING, SCOOTY n WINDS, MOVIE n FOOD.. PLUS the ADMISSION TENSION! ALREADY got rejections from many colleges..wanted to make it this year.. BUT.. I was back to home..found one call letter lying half through the door,as if it welcomed me.. i was more than happy and so much excited(though i wasnt able to convert that call but..that was a special moment).. more preparation was GDs n interview.. i was even preparing by phone..discussing things with friend(it was fun!) Then,get together with friends,their continuous support and encouragement..talks and chats.. AND THEN the difficult decision of shifting to ghaziabad(though we didnt think and planned before making that decision),but probabaly it was the best possible option left.. APRIL..AGRA TRIP(first time without teachers or parents!) with my closest friends(next time it would be with all my dearest friends! :) and my friend..first time some friend stayed at my place..lovly.. did lot of talks that day and night.. IT WAS AN AWESOME TRIP. and i got to know some new opinions anout myself..huh..! AFTER COMING BACK,faced two GDs and interviews.. THAT was a nice experience too, i was better than expected ;) Got selected in one..but there were more than two months for the college to start.. so thought of doing some job for a month or so.. CONSULTANCY,my first job interview.. i went just to have an experience,was least bothered for my selection..so that was fun too..AND the best part,my friend was there with me :) GOT SELECTED, 1 month of a job and just me and bro at home(mum had to shift :) making the breakfast,and daily having heavy dinner of naan and daal makhani,chole kulche and cheese (my bro was showing extra care and affection!!hehe..cute) MY FIRST SALARY and a few lies at work place..daily bus journey and handling the irritating crowd.. bought gifts for family and friends ( not for all..had limited amount!!) NOW,i was at ghaziabad,new home.. my cousin came for a few days,so didnt have any time to get bored..! then THE COLLEGE..SUMMER CLASSES,new people and interactions.. I realized, how common my face was(it reminded of some or the other person to many!) AND FINALLY COLLEGE STARTED..hectic schedule and new amazing friends,busy me..exams and results..tensions and FUN! A close friend's accident..God..! My birthday..a tough day, i dont know,what went wrong but it was beautiful too.. A few days ago,my sister came and we shared a lot of talks and secrets( which were piling up since 2 years).. AND NOW I AM DONE WITH TWO TRIMESTERS..watched "Three idiots"esterday(what an extra amazing or say ultimate way to end an year),I LOVED THIS MOVIE LIKE ANYTHING(i am not paid to promote it :( but watch it ASAP ) THERE WERE TOO MANY OTHER THINGS TOO..BUT THE BIG ONEs i mentioned... THIS YEAR TAUGHT ME ALOT,LOVED IT..HOPING THAT THERE ARE MORE ADVENTURES TO COME IN 2010.. I''L ENJOY THE EXCITING LIFE AHEAD.. Wishing you all a very Happy and adventurous new year.. :) have fun!!

NEW GIRL IN JBS..(MBA)..MY FIRST TRIMESTER..

Recently i saw ‘wake up sid’..I was touched by the article ‘new girl in the city’.. the matter in the article holds true for me too which says, in a new place you can have happiness, success, your dreams can come true but you can never feel the true happiness untill you have someone to share things..a true companion.. I have recently shifted to Ghaziabad..it has been 4-5 months here but the place is still new to me..i still fear going out alone.. (but two of my friends made this place really comfortable for me..) I am doing MBA from jbs, noida and my first trimester is over. When i took admission, i was sure that I’ll get along with people and adjust really well..i had confidence in myself(may be because i always feel the support of my friends and family). Initially i had no clue that how i will commute from my place to college..i was learning car but could never gain confidence over it and i wanted to avoid bus in any case(because i experienced the bad crowd and long time taken by the bus..huh :( ). I was looking for the car pool as an option. I always wished to have hostel but..hm.. BUT now i dont want a hostel.. :) I got in touch with a guy from my college through orkut who, along with his friend was also interested in car pool but i continued my search so that i could get a girl carpool partner also!(it is really difficult to trust guys!! ISNT IT!!?). And i am happy that i didnt find any fourth person.. BECAUSE,in no time..We three turned friends.. And a journey began.. My new college, new people (though everything in same colour-BLUE!!),new work load , new books ;everything began pulling me towards itself. I got totally engrossed into the new life. I began to feel fast shifts in my mood and i started feeling a lot of emotions. I liked the faculty and students around. AND THE NEW PROJECTS AND DIFFERENT GROUPS..it gave a tough and different experience of working with people you like and dislike..(but as i believe,tough people always make it).. The more i started communicating with students around, more i felt differences in opinion. It was totally irritating to talk to few.. I found few people who were still immature to talk to..and few i found totally mature with no humour or cuteness left in them!! But as we say ‘we gel with the people of our type’, i got a few with the same chemistry as mine :) . Initially, i faced adjustment problems (probably most of the students faced it). Everyday i used to miss of lovely old gold friends who gave me so much of love, care and respect (because, obviously i was not feeling same here). I learned to carry an 'i dont care' attitude for those who didnt deserve my attention and time. I missed my friends like anything. I started valuing them even more. Days were passing, i started enjoying my class, studies, the funny teachers and the CAR(car time was the most relaxing time during classes and the high learning time during exams--waoo!!) I was left with no time for my family and loved ones.. i got complains but did'nt do much about it..!! i started feeling guilty for being selfish but still i was enjoying my college!! New courses (in jbs, subjects=courses!! God knows why!! But it sounds kewl!!),new assignments took my sleep away..i got all the dark circles..!!uff.. and on the top of that every next person(not exactly every next person!) started saying me..u look so depressed, sleepy, sick, unhappy..!!huh!!(it was tough to survive with continuous comments and no compliments!) And i was wondering what exactly happened..!! Slowly i took control over myself..Realized that work is not a burden but fun..and i have to get away with that sad guilty feeling as well.. And the good times were back..i began to smile again.. And yes not to forget to mention about the few people around who really impressed me with their honesty, truthfulness, always ready to help behaviour and human nature. I was totally weak in commerce subjects such as economics, stats and accounts..and students actually taught me these subjects...!! i mean in mba..there still exists the class of people who are totally helping and not selfish..(because they taught me even when i was not their friend!). I will be always grateful to them. one of the best part..My "ACHIEVERS" group..the girls team..lunch hour..saturdays's food..the breaking news of the class..humour and BONDING.. They all made my first trimester simple and tension free. And the combined study at home during exams(earlier i never did combined study at home-i just love it!),fast revision in the car, those phones and messages(350 messages over in2-3 days!!),those bunks and movies.. and SHIPRA :)) SPECIAL THANKS TO MY FRIENDS(school and college) AND FAMILY..WHO ALWAYS SUPPORT ME LIKE ANYTHING..LOVE YOU ALL..ALWAYS BE THERE WITH ME.. ;) First trimester was no doubt special..And never ever forgetting(as the first love!) Because i met few true companions to share mba(and the feelings attached) with..

DO YOU DREAM..?

DO YOU DREAM?I DO. 

Daydreaming is so nice. You can dream of everything you want. You can just get into a different world. You can dream of yourself at any place, with anyone. 

You can dream of doing anything you ever wanted. It feels so good to be alone for a moment and spend time with yourself and just feel free, and fly away in the world of dreams.. 

I love talking..and there are many people I really love to communicate with..but I know it's not possible, so I dream of talking to them. 

I don't know how it starts but I just get lost in that dream talk. And then I just wish it to be all true.! I dream of talking to guys I really like. And it becomes a lovely story. I dream that some old friends have suddenly appeared in front of me..! Sometimes I dream, my old friends are coming with posters and hoardings to look for me. I dream of earning money and buy things.. I dream of coming running to my parents with a happy face and shout.." I have got, what I wanted" or anything like that. I dream of dancing as if no one is looking or judging me..on the roads..on the roof.. I just love getting lost in the songs..I love imagining myself in the songs.. I dream of convincing people of everything which is in my mind.. I love to dream about solving the problems of the people whom I know are suffering because of something.. When I am sad, I dream of my parents and friends holding my hand and taking me away from that sad environment.. I dream of walking alone or go somewhere away from everyone and everything.. I love to dream that I am pretty and everyone is noticing me.. I dream of doing breakdance and salsa..!! I dream of doing "puppet dance " and acting.. I dream of singing in a big auditorium full of people.. I dream of being an anchor and crack jokes on mike..! I dream of abusing a person who did something unethical according to me.. I dream of wearing cute clothes which i cant wear in reality.. I love to dream that people are fond of me..and miss me when i am not around.. I dream of my face looking cute when i am sleeping.. I dream of making my Nani (maternal Grandmother) really smart and independent again.. I dream of making my parents the happiest people in the world.. I dream of teaching kids who have turned beggars.. I dream of getting higher and higher in life.. I dream of being truthful and honest all my life and check the consequences..!! I dream of talking to the god directly who can guide me to the way ahead. AND so many other things.. 

WHAT YOU DREAM..??

my first gdpi..

I went for my group discussion and personal interview. It was my first experience of the same. I was confident till the last evening but since night could feel the butterflies in my stomach.
We gad to reach the college early in the morning, which meant, i should sleep early and wake up early.
But whole night, I could not sleep properly. I was getting up every next hour and looking at the time..!
Finally the time came when I had to get ready.
My parents accompanied me. We took the auto and at a particular place, waited for the college bus. This bus had to take us to the respective college.
I bought a newspaper at the bus stop so that i could check the headlines.( i was advised to do so..)
Finally the bus started. I didn’t want to eat anything but than i had tea and ate my breakfast in bus just because i wanted to sound louder in gd.
We reached the college and we were asked to sign an attendance page. I could not find my form number on the page(and suddenly I realized, my name was not on net but i just had the hard copy), but than someone advised me to check the front page(which i missed in a hurry..) and there i signed against my form number.
We entered the college...Parents were directed to the other side... And students towards the seminar hall.
I reached the seminar hall and entered confidently. I knew i was looking smart. :)
I occupied my seat..whereas round i could see many students who were present there to give me competition..!
I went to the washroom twice..And checked the mirror with smile and looked more confident and nice.. BUT these butterflies were disturbing me every now and than.
Suddenly, many final year students gathered in the hall to start the whole process.
I was a little shocked because there was no teacher present around but then presence of only students made me feel comfortable.
Opposite to my expectations, they started distributing sheets to us to write an essay.. And we were given a long topic.. (INDIA'S ANSWER TO OBAMA? WHO WILL BE THE OBAMA FOR INDIA,WHO WILL MARCH THE COUNTRY FORWARD)
We were given good 15 minutes, which were more than enough for me because i had nothing much to write.!
They gave us 10 minutes as break to have team or something and i could only think of loo :)
I was back and everyone else was too..
They started calling our names according to the group and panel number assigned to us.
They called a sardar first..i saw him..And a thought rushed into my mind .."He must be a good speaker. Who wont let anyone speak..God help his group mates.."
And suddenly i heard "RIKI!"
I though ohh! And smiled within..for being in the same group as him.
And we formed a group of 11 students. We all were passing smiles to each other, as if saying hi's and good luck'
and a girl in front of me asked ..'are you nervous?'..and i replied’ a bit'..she told me but i was really looking nervous!
We entered he room where a panel of two teachers was there to judge us.
We were given some important guidelines before starting a gd..and I can only remember " don’t let it become a fish market"
Our topic was "LIFE IS MIRROR"
someone started..Someone justified..i also entered the gd(with my hands shivering with nervousness) but i spoke okay..
Points were getting repeated..and i could think of no new dimension(which i realized at home..!)
The students who didn’t participated much in it, they were given extra opportunity..Like to conclude, summarize, add..etc.. so overall everyone spoke almost equally.
I was happy that sardar stud equal with all..
After 15 minutes..we were sent back to seminar hall..
While going upstairs, we all started talking..and asking "how was it..how was it".
No one was satisfied with the gd..but than no one could do anything.
In the seminar hall..seniors stared answering our queries..like placements, number of seats, fees, laptops, hostel, gym, beauty parlor!
and simultaneously, they were assigning group for pi.
A group having 5-6 students was sent for pi..and i was the part of this first group.(we were told, after pi gets over..we can return beck to our homes)
We went downstairs and waited outside the room.
to be continued..

When i was walking alone,i wished that i reach the end of the road. But when friends like you joined me, i wished the road never ends..

I am on my way to reach a lovely destination. I am being optimistic about my life..This is due to the very fact that good people around me have got that trust in me. They have given me that great confidence and have made me think positive all the time. They have supported me like anything.

I dont know what the future holds..but i simply believe that it will be all good. I didnt get good results but still afew believe that i'll get what i want.

My MUMMA..who firmly believes that i'll get something really good and i feel too relaxed after talking to her..

My PA..who always encouraged me to do my best and leave the rest..

My BROTHER..who takes all my burden on himself and keeps me away from worries...i feel,he has made my life so easy and wonderful that i can proudly say that ' i have a big brother'..

RAHUL..whom i call my life..who was there with me..and i am sure he'll be with me throughout my life..i dont how he manages with me..and tolerate all sorts of behaviours i show..!someone who is so caring,supportive,who knows me better than anyone else..if it wasnt him..life would have turned so difficult...i feel i live because he is with me..my ultimate strength..

MAYANK..the gennie..a friend,a counseller,a robot(when i want him to just listen and not speak at all!),a guy who proved me that god exists in humans..and he is one of those(may be the only one)..someone who was always there in my good and the bad times(mostly bad!)..an amazing,its difficult to define the relation i share with him..someone who is always with me..

HITESH..who encouraged me..cracked jokes..made me laugh and smile everytime we talked..wonderfull friend..a cute kiddu..lovely..

SHIKHA..who was constantly in touch..the only friend since 11 years..and for the lifetime..her support and those lovely messages which always works for me..sometimes i feel as if we are twins..with almost same nature,same feelings..scorpions..!

HIMANSHU..huh..i miss you..someone, i know, will be there whenever i'll need him..someone who taught me how to face problems in life..someone who guided me how to handle unexpected troubles..'time can never mend careless whispers of a good friend..'someone who wrote for me..'kabhi kabhi riki zindagi me koi apna lagta hai..'

SRISHTI..great exmaple of someone who never quits..someone who was with me..since long..particulary when i thought of cat..someone really swett and simple..someone who showed how one can change his life..someone i call my friend..

PRIYANKA..a friend..a friend for life..who was with me whenever i needed her..someone who knows me all..i just love you...you mean a lot for me..and iyou know it..

ADESH..cute cute cute..he was always good to me..a great friend..who supported me since the time i know him..someone who with his relaxed and easy answers dissolves my queries and tensions..someone with whom i share a lovely bonding..different from others..

KALPANA..sweet and innocent..who told me how good i am.!who gave me that respect and love which i'll keep with me all my life..

ESHAN..a friend..who didnt change with time..his goodness is constant or say increasing since the day we became friends..someone who made me believe that i deserve the best..someone who cared for me..its always good talking to him..someone i feel proud of..

SAURAV..i never knew after college he and i would turn good friends..thankyou(i know i know..no sorry,no thankyou...but stiil..)..someone who with his sweet nature..makes me smile..someone who stayed chilled out and relaxed..don..!

PRASHANT..he is really good..amazing..i mean really great..thankyou.....

TARUN SIR..when i took this decision to drop and prepare for MBA..he was someone who showed me the positive light..at that point of time i really needed someone who could convince me..that i was going the right way..and he was the one..

These are the people who played that significant role in my life.. the people i am sure would be my friends for lifetime.. the friends i value the most.. the buddies who were there in hardest times of my life.. Though it is impossible for me to write and express how important these people are for me..but..it is better that i save rest of my emotions and feelings in my heart..

In this journey i met few others..whom i wish to be friends with..always.. AASTHA..cute,lovely..the only person i met who keeps happy all the time..touchwood! It is not that her life is all fun..but it is beacuse she knows how to turn life in happy mode.. GAURAV..wonderful human..he is good not only to me but as a person..someone simple,sweet...with genuine emotions..he has created that respect for him in me.. RAYAZ..someone sensitive,emotional,really nice..

MOHIT..it is really good talking to him..i'll remember all those wonderful conversations we had..

THANKYOU FRIENDS FOR EVERYTHING.. YOU ALL HAVE MADE ME STRONG AND YOU HAVE REALLY BECOME MY STRENGTH..