To be yourself in a world which is constantly trying to make you somebody else is the biggest thing..be good.. :)

Hmm..life is going too fast..and probably i am going too slow..for me relations are much more important than anything else..and i believe...we should make new relations only when we are able to handle old ones..otherwise problems arise..and it becomes difficult to fight troubles when human emotions are involved..Different people different things..everything tries to change one’s behaviour..and as I believe..to be yourself in a world which is constantly trying to make you somebody else is the biggest thing..people often change..i have seen them..who have turned strict, stiff ,who have forgot that once they had a great sense of humour..that they were full of life..but thanks to troubles around them..which remains constant and thus successful..They fight the troubles..fight themselves to overcome the problems..but finally they surrender.. its difficult to solve all the problems..and come out winning..and the easier way is to escape the troubles..but ..difficulties are not just ours..but our near and dear ones are involved..and that stops us to run away..(plus we don’t have enough money to escape!!)..

In my case..something similar happened..and it kept on repeating its self..(as if God thought i love it..!)..i am changing too..turning negative..fighting life..at one time I laugh like anything..as if I just needed a chance to get started with my never stopping smile..and other times I feel totally low.. and believe me..these extremes are killing me..As every other person even I want to live happily..fight things but at the end come out as a winner..but I fight fight and fight…get all my energy back..talk to different people..who can help me..suddenly..i feel as if I am on track again..only till the same problem rise again…and I am back on zero..even people with whom I share things get bored of listening the same things again and again..You know I love life..because its beautiful..i love the people around me..i love life..because it gives me different challenges and difficult situations..but when I get the same situation again again..i get bored of life..i feel..”NOT AGAIN”..(abhi to sab theek hua tha..)..

Huh..! I don’t want to change myself..i don’t want to get sick of the problem and get moulded according to it..i am a human not a clay with a different identity and uniqueness…oh god..help me not change..into a tough.strict..someone who have forgotten whats life is all about..

Want to be a winner in life..:)

SOMETIMES PEOPLE DO WONDERS..

Whenever i am totally lost with myself and my pain,there is always someone or something to help me out,to give me an unexpected support and relief..that someone can be my closest pal,friends,my family..and if no one is around,God has to be there!It becomes very easy in life when we have problems but we also have someone to share things..but the most difficult time as when we feel lonely,neglecte and start looking for help..we find no one!Sometimes i ask myself how can i be alone when i have all the good people in my life but then if i observe a little closely,i find everyone is busy..if i can share it with him,why cant he share it with me..if i am asking for help,why cant someone give me a response i expect..if i find him as the only support.why he is unaware of it..and these qustions stop me to call anyone and i am left all alone..then i read my diary..all the positive things i wrote,i see all the msgs my friends sent..i start feeling better..though everyone cant be with us all the time..but their memories are always there with us..their words makes us feel loved..YES SOMETIMES PEOPLE DO WONDERS..a friend is not a word of formality and not everyone can be our friend..but its a special feeling..family and friends..an ultimate support..let them be busy..but trust me they are always there..come on..God cant leave us alone..there is always a gennie..

train and mah covered face..

Dis is d 5th dy of mah chickenpox..

N m goin bk 2 home..

its a hott summer dy n m in train..

Magadh Express whch m sure is d slowest train evr made on dis planet..

M coverd wd a light cloth bt unfortunately its thick enuf 2 resist ma oxygen..!

Ys m feelin d heat..

every male arnd me s curious 2knw,y my face is coverd..

as if m hidin diamonds.

its a 4hr jrny..n as i sed..ds slowest train wud probably tk ma liftime..

Ppl takin rubbish..thos strnge train discussions..

bt yeah ds sounds btr dan feel d silence..

A cute child s playin here..n makin an irritatin noise..

he s succesful,my momjz lukd at him..!

ds may b d 1st litle child continuously sayin 'pappa' n ignrin his lovin mom..

Ds cloth s irritatin me again..

N guess wat..des job less ppl r wonderin wt m typin in my cell phone..!!

N d next station is ghaziabd..only IF no new stations a created by ds EXPRESSO..!

M waitn 2 entr ghaziabad..atlst i wud b able 2 msg mah frnz n complain abt ds SUPER DUPER SWIFT....huh.....