And i met her again today..

I met her first when she was in 5th standard..completely happy and satisfied with her little friends and those kidu games..her lovely teachers and loving family..

I met her again when she changed her school,went to a different city and missed her old friends badly.. She adjusted,made new friends and kept this hope that she'll meet those golden friends again (she recently got in touch with one.. :) ) Now she was in a better place,a nice school..

and

I met her again.. she started loving the new city and the different people around..and her home where lived her caring mom,waiting for her..her dad,ever loving and the dearu brother.. The years passed,now she was a big girl..

and I met her again.. This was the time when she realised that people take her as sweet, friendly,loving,always helping and ofcourse the good student..! she was in 10th then..

Great marks..new wings and a NEW SHE.. A little more mature,a little more lively..a little more smart and a little more understanding.. This was the time which brought twist in her life..a little more friends,friends forever..different flavour of love..Her life was a little more different now..a little more fun..a little less studies..a little more diversion..

School life never returns..now she was in college..and I met her again.. she was different..sometimes totally dumb,sometimes totally smart..sometimes overactive and sometimes superlazy..! She added a new friend-MOBILE!

Now she started experiencing two extremes of mood. Also the stupid feelings entered her mind..Jealousy,Possessiveness,unneccessary worries and the feeling of guilt! But this was the total fun time for her..too many bunks and too many different places to visit..never ending walks and totally tires she.. She faced responsibilities and challenges.

A few more friends..friends forever.. She was a graduate now..And i met her again. She was unclear about her goals in life..her future and she was a little scared of the coming years. With guidance,support,her own will..she is in a proffessional course now(simply..a college again..pg level!!)

It was diificult for her in initial days..but now when she has completed her one year..

I MET HER AGAIN TODAY.. She now knows alot of people around. She is living her life in a better way;with a little less restrictions and a little more freedom. She likes lot of people around.

She is more confident and a little more practical. Her goals are more clear now. She is a little more positive,a little more forgiving,a little more resposible But a little more busy.. BUT YES,she is stll experiencing those extreme mood swings..

I will meet her again..and find her status..the time will be tough ahead.. lets see,if she makes it the way she wants... :)

These days...

Its been long since i have written any post..lots of things are happening continuously and most of them can be called "happening"!!.

The major ones include the end of my MBA 1st year turning me into a half MBA..the scary viva which caused my skin to swell..!

the training..and a little hope for PPO..!!

The first year in JBS was good,with the first trimester tough to handle and the next two super light and comfortable..the decent CGPA and wonderful people around..those uncontrollable laughs and those encouraging lectures..sleepy classes and attendence worries.. those continuous complains about administration and never implemented movie plans..!! The shipra..the fest..the farewell..the friends..

And the super scary viva at the year end which was nothing more than the test of patience due long waits as if teachers got the chance for ragging each one of us legally..(though they always have it..!!) but somehow eachone of us managed it without much hassels..and that RUN for the movie to GIP(a reason to wear different outfits otherthan our UNIFORM!!) after this terrible viva session..

CONFIRMATION for TRAINING and the joining from next day excited me..(specially after seeing ROCKET SINGH a day before)

I was expecting no special attention from our bosses..(bosses..sounds..huhh..!!) but daily reporting and sudden calls "kahan ho" made me feel good and not neglected..!!

The SO Caring "they" untill i realized that it is just the way to get your work done..and i had now entered the world of proffesionalism..where everyone expects too much from you as an MBA..Its a totally practical world where people work as machines with a little emotions(for those who are new..!!)

-I realized nothing is more important than your given Target. -There is no value of time specially when you are trainee. -10 mins are never less than an hour. -If you are not able to perform,you are thretened to be thrown(happened with me..!!) this made me realize..what the pressure is and i entered depressing mode almost for a week..!! and my smile almost faded..its still not in place..!!

-I realized its hard to get people working for you untill you have the authority. -"INSAAN KI ZUBAAN HI SAB KUCH HOTI HAI" IS Useless here..where words have no value..tomorrow means tomorrow that never comes.

-Resoning and explanations are of no importance,only the result matters.

-It becomes really really difficult to trust the people around..every word you say can become an issue so just takecare..and speak with no names involved.

-I have learnt,how to meet and talk to managers(CLIENTS!!).

-I have improved my convincing skills..(BUT FOR THIS FIRST YOU NEED TO CONVINCE YOURSELF).

-I have learnt,if you are from a big company,you are respected.(atleast before you..!)

-I have learnt,people hardly says NO..instead they ignore you..miss you calls..or just go out of town for an undefined period (hahh)!!

-I have learnt..carrying CONFIDENCE is the foremost thing.

-I have learnt sometimes,you start lying not out of choice but by chance (may the fear of the one above you)..BUT THIS CAN BE AVOIDED..if you realize it at the right time.

-I have learnt its no more a difficult thing to travel in buses for 4-5 hours to a new place.

-I have learnt,if you are in the marketing and in field..WEAR SHOES..to run..to keep yourself safe..and walk fast..COVER YOUR FACE..otherwise sun will burn you and people will think,you were always the same..!!

-I have learnt, sometimes you need to go with strangers and put your trust..!!BUT JUST TAKE CARE..!!

I have learnt,it doesnt take a birthday to make you a year older but the stress you feel inside..

NOTHING CAN HARM YOU IF YOU ARE HONEST TO YOURSELF..TO OTHERS..THE FEAR VANISHES.. :))

1. 
   
   marketing is not about lying and selling..its about maintaining relationships and first believing in your own peroduct..!!


2. 
   
   its not about making false promises but conveying an approximation,if not exact,atleast close.


3. 
   
   its not about making others wait for so long..but informing them the right time.


4. 
   
   its not about cutting the calls or ignoring them but guts to say no but in a right way.


5. 
   
   its about meeing new people and leaving a positive image.


6. 
   
   its about connecting with the world.

TRAINING WAS A WONDERFUL EXPERINCE..it gave me a feel of an employee!! and I have started loving my college more..where i am protected, safe with lots of friends around me.... NEED A BIG TIME BREAK........eeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

(feel like shouting hard..!!)

dasvidaniya..farewell to our senior batch..

okay... this one is "on order".. so i dedicate it to the same person who asked me to write it.. mr.vaibhav jain.. my senior(..not in age..!!).

since i entered jbs..i made so many good friends.. but i always expected more interaction with seniors.. but somehow..it didnt happen... we never initiated..and they never initiated too.. but then came the time when..2-3 seniors started interacting with us(this is throygh my perspective..others might have interacted with other juniors).. and that was really good.. i would like to mention their names.. vaibhav sir,arunesh sir..and mukul sir.. seniors..as the word says..gives us some kind of security..and we surely need their advise.. T nP meetings.. gave me a sense of involvement in college activities..

16th march..2010..we gave the farewell..the experience was great.. the week was badly hectic.. and when the farewell happened..it gave us a sense of achievement because only few among us knew about the hardwork we did for this..the finance..the momento..the documentry..lots of applications..events..the risk of attendence..n on the top of that..the criticism and the taunts

(the best part..it makes me feel important :) vishakh,ribhu,eva,divya,smriti,shraddha,richa,sumant,sakshi,akansha,mayur..dil mein ho jazba toh sab kuch hai asaan.. i loved the "understanding" this team shared.. the support we gave to each other.. :) :) and thanks to all my batchmates( specially those who supported :P) and now senior batch is going..

vaibhav sir.. you gave us a great support.. the best thing in you is..you are approchable.. we dont have to think much before talking to you because you always give positive response.. your presence really make people comfortable around you.. and your honesty and quality to take initiatives really encourage me..

arunesh sir..the way you speak..your confidence.. its great.. i always thought that you are a serious guy..but interacting with you more made me realise..you are funny too..

mukul sir.. jaijinendra.. you have interacted too with lot of juniors..specially through net..and its really good chatting with you.. thanks to other seniors too.. for being there..attending the farewell.. hope you all do well in life.. :)

WE FEEL IT..RIGHT...??

Feelings...something that can only be felt but can not be expressed completely through words.

Each moment of life adds something to our experience and thus adds to our emotions and feelings..

I,obviously can not put my feelings here and make you feel them but i am writing the instances which makes us FEEL..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when you have something great to share and miss that happy dance with a friend..

when you are alone and lost in sad thoughts and you imagine your friend hugging you..

when your friend says,he is going abroad for few years..you are happy but want to go along..because you fear distance..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when you are awake at night and all your friends have slept..and you really want to talk..

when you are appreaciated in public and you cant stop smiling..!

when your friend is sad and distant,and you really want to prove that you are with him..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when you meet your old group and time runs so fast..

when you really search for some encouragement and motivation..and you dont get one..

when you really expect your loved one to trust you..and it becomes difficult..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when you dont want to hear that small word "bye" and continue forever..

when you badly want to hug your friend sitting next to you,but your mind asks to restrict you without a logic!

when you friends touch your parent's feet and treat them as their parents..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when you desire for importance and you are ignored..

when no one answers and your friend does it correctly making you proud..

when a stranger quickly becomes your friend..and you cant resist that friendship..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when someone questions your self respect and you still want to forgive and continue as before..

when someone desperately asks for your opinion,and when you give one..rejects it!

when someone unexpectedly give you so much of value and importance..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when lovedeone lies to you because you are not that understanding..

when you lie to your lovedone..because you think.he is not understanding..

when your friend stops talking to you and go away without saying a word..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when you dont want to cry in front of someone but you unable to control your tears..

when your crying eyes are taken for granted..

when you miss someone badly..and you get his/her call...and you start believing in coincidences..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when your friend is ready to move the world just to make you smile and at the end you realise,he himself was sad and you didnt notice..

when you give someone blank call just to listen to his/her voice..

when you sit with your loved one and enjoy his company while still keeping quiet..

HOW DOES IT FELL..

when you get compliments for your specific features such as eyes,smile etc..

when you play with a little kid and forget your stress..

when your closed one is in pain..and you cant do anything..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when you really want to compliment someone but resist it just to avoid wrong signals..

when you find your childhood friend after long long years..

when someone betrays you and you find hundreds of reasons for not believing this..

HOW DOES IT FEEL..

when someone takes your genuine reasons as fake accuses..

when someone gifts you exactly what you wanted..

when someone keeps on blaming you and taunt you and you feel helpless..

AND YOUR FAMILY..when it gives you never ending unlimited support and trusts you blindly..

those feelings of jealousy and the feeling of falling in love..

and the ultimate feeling of fear of loosing someone...

THE FEELINGS MAY NEVER END...but this post needs to...

MY MEMORIES OF 2009! HAPPY NEW YEAR..

Its 31st..9pm.. I had a good day..had a nice time with family. I got finished up with exams yesterday only,so i am relaxed too :) I have got a week off from college..its good to be home after exmas!! I am sitting with myself(main aur meri tanhayi ;) ),waiting for some friend's call. Lost in my thoughts.. The year is ending..2009.. Probably,i wont forget this year. Though every year brings something different but this brought some big changes..in me..for me..for the people close to me. PEOPLE SAY that there is no use remembering the past..BUT WHY NOT..when i have the time PLUS i can TEST MY MEMORY!! January started with competitions,XAT,FMS..(the only hopes left after CAT!) CAT result and that wait for the calls.. Then the big break after exams;no more quant,english or di! BUT the interview questions and GD topics, detailed news and articles, magazines and net..ooohh,i even started making notes of the news!!! Sometimes i still read those..THE SATYAM SCANDLE and THE CHANDRAYAN..shame and the pride. Then,went to Gwalior to my aunt's place,had fun with cousin :). Mum also got a week free to enjoy with her sister.. MELA n SHOPPING, SCOOTY n WINDS, MOVIE n FOOD.. PLUS the ADMISSION TENSION! ALREADY got rejections from many colleges..wanted to make it this year.. BUT.. I was back to home..found one call letter lying half through the door,as if it welcomed me.. i was more than happy and so much excited(though i wasnt able to convert that call but..that was a special moment).. more preparation was GDs n interview.. i was even preparing by phone..discussing things with friend(it was fun!) Then,get together with friends,their continuous support and encouragement..talks and chats.. AND THEN the difficult decision of shifting to ghaziabad(though we didnt think and planned before making that decision),but probabaly it was the best possible option left.. APRIL..AGRA TRIP(first time without teachers or parents!) with my closest friends(next time it would be with all my dearest friends! :) and my friend..first time some friend stayed at my place..lovly.. did lot of talks that day and night.. IT WAS AN AWESOME TRIP. and i got to know some new opinions anout myself..huh..! AFTER COMING BACK,faced two GDs and interviews.. THAT was a nice experience too, i was better than expected ;) Got selected in one..but there were more than two months for the college to start.. so thought of doing some job for a month or so.. CONSULTANCY,my first job interview.. i went just to have an experience,was least bothered for my selection..so that was fun too..AND the best part,my friend was there with me :) GOT SELECTED, 1 month of a job and just me and bro at home(mum had to shift :) making the breakfast,and daily having heavy dinner of naan and daal makhani,chole kulche and cheese (my bro was showing extra care and affection!!hehe..cute) MY FIRST SALARY and a few lies at work place..daily bus journey and handling the irritating crowd.. bought gifts for family and friends ( not for all..had limited amount!!) NOW,i was at ghaziabad,new home.. my cousin came for a few days,so didnt have any time to get bored..! then THE COLLEGE..SUMMER CLASSES,new people and interactions.. I realized, how common my face was(it reminded of some or the other person to many!) AND FINALLY COLLEGE STARTED..hectic schedule and new amazing friends,busy me..exams and results..tensions and FUN! A close friend's accident..God..! My birthday..a tough day, i dont know,what went wrong but it was beautiful too.. A few days ago,my sister came and we shared a lot of talks and secrets( which were piling up since 2 years).. AND NOW I AM DONE WITH TWO TRIMESTERS..watched "Three idiots"esterday(what an extra amazing or say ultimate way to end an year),I LOVED THIS MOVIE LIKE ANYTHING(i am not paid to promote it :( but watch it ASAP ) THERE WERE TOO MANY OTHER THINGS TOO..BUT THE BIG ONEs i mentioned... THIS YEAR TAUGHT ME ALOT,LOVED IT..HOPING THAT THERE ARE MORE ADVENTURES TO COME IN 2010.. I''L ENJOY THE EXCITING LIFE AHEAD.. Wishing you all a very Happy and adventurous new year.. :) have fun!!

NEW GIRL IN JBS..(MBA)..MY FIRST TRIMESTER..

Recently i saw ‘wake up sid’..I was touched by the article ‘new girl in the city’.. the matter in the article holds true for me too which says, in a new place you can have happiness, success, your dreams can come true but you can never feel the true happiness untill you have someone to share things..a true companion.. I have recently shifted to Ghaziabad..it has been 4-5 months here but the place is still new to me..i still fear going out alone.. (but two of my friends made this place really comfortable for me..) I am doing MBA from jbs, noida and my first trimester is over. When i took admission, i was sure that I’ll get along with people and adjust really well..i had confidence in myself(may be because i always feel the support of my friends and family). Initially i had no clue that how i will commute from my place to college..i was learning car but could never gain confidence over it and i wanted to avoid bus in any case(because i experienced the bad crowd and long time taken by the bus..huh :( ). I was looking for the car pool as an option. I always wished to have hostel but..hm.. BUT now i dont want a hostel.. :) I got in touch with a guy from my college through orkut who, along with his friend was also interested in car pool but i continued my search so that i could get a girl carpool partner also!(it is really difficult to trust guys!! ISNT IT!!?). And i am happy that i didnt find any fourth person.. BECAUSE,in no time..We three turned friends.. And a journey began.. My new college, new people (though everything in same colour-BLUE!!),new work load , new books ;everything began pulling me towards itself. I got totally engrossed into the new life. I began to feel fast shifts in my mood and i started feeling a lot of emotions. I liked the faculty and students around. AND THE NEW PROJECTS AND DIFFERENT GROUPS..it gave a tough and different experience of working with people you like and dislike..(but as i believe,tough people always make it).. The more i started communicating with students around, more i felt differences in opinion. It was totally irritating to talk to few.. I found few people who were still immature to talk to..and few i found totally mature with no humour or cuteness left in them!! But as we say ‘we gel with the people of our type’, i got a few with the same chemistry as mine :) . Initially, i faced adjustment problems (probably most of the students faced it). Everyday i used to miss of lovely old gold friends who gave me so much of love, care and respect (because, obviously i was not feeling same here). I learned to carry an 'i dont care' attitude for those who didnt deserve my attention and time. I missed my friends like anything. I started valuing them even more. Days were passing, i started enjoying my class, studies, the funny teachers and the CAR(car time was the most relaxing time during classes and the high learning time during exams--waoo!!) I was left with no time for my family and loved ones.. i got complains but did'nt do much about it..!! i started feeling guilty for being selfish but still i was enjoying my college!! New courses (in jbs, subjects=courses!! God knows why!! But it sounds kewl!!),new assignments took my sleep away..i got all the dark circles..!!uff.. and on the top of that every next person(not exactly every next person!) started saying me..u look so depressed, sleepy, sick, unhappy..!!huh!!(it was tough to survive with continuous comments and no compliments!) And i was wondering what exactly happened..!! Slowly i took control over myself..Realized that work is not a burden but fun..and i have to get away with that sad guilty feeling as well.. And the good times were back..i began to smile again.. And yes not to forget to mention about the few people around who really impressed me with their honesty, truthfulness, always ready to help behaviour and human nature. I was totally weak in commerce subjects such as economics, stats and accounts..and students actually taught me these subjects...!! i mean in mba..there still exists the class of people who are totally helping and not selfish..(because they taught me even when i was not their friend!). I will be always grateful to them. one of the best part..My "ACHIEVERS" group..the girls team..lunch hour..saturdays's food..the breaking news of the class..humour and BONDING.. They all made my first trimester simple and tension free. And the combined study at home during exams(earlier i never did combined study at home-i just love it!),fast revision in the car, those phones and messages(350 messages over in2-3 days!!),those bunks and movies.. and SHIPRA :)) SPECIAL THANKS TO MY FRIENDS(school and college) AND FAMILY..WHO ALWAYS SUPPORT ME LIKE ANYTHING..LOVE YOU ALL..ALWAYS BE THERE WITH ME.. ;) First trimester was no doubt special..And never ever forgetting(as the first love!) Because i met few true companions to share mba(and the feelings attached) with..

DO YOU DREAM..?

DO YOU DREAM?I DO. 

Daydreaming is so nice. You can dream of everything you want. You can just get into a different world. You can dream of yourself at any place, with anyone. 

You can dream of doing anything you ever wanted. It feels so good to be alone for a moment and spend time with yourself and just feel free, and fly away in the world of dreams.. 

I love talking..and there are many people I really love to communicate with..but I know it's not possible, so I dream of talking to them. 

I don't know how it starts but I just get lost in that dream talk. And then I just wish it to be all true.! I dream of talking to guys I really like. And it becomes a lovely story. I dream that some old friends have suddenly appeared in front of me..! Sometimes I dream, my old friends are coming with posters and hoardings to look for me. I dream of earning money and buy things.. I dream of coming running to my parents with a happy face and shout.." I have got, what I wanted" or anything like that. I dream of dancing as if no one is looking or judging me..on the roads..on the roof.. I just love getting lost in the songs..I love imagining myself in the songs.. I dream of convincing people of everything which is in my mind.. I love to dream about solving the problems of the people whom I know are suffering because of something.. When I am sad, I dream of my parents and friends holding my hand and taking me away from that sad environment.. I dream of walking alone or go somewhere away from everyone and everything.. I love to dream that I am pretty and everyone is noticing me.. I dream of doing breakdance and salsa..!! I dream of doing "puppet dance " and acting.. I dream of singing in a big auditorium full of people.. I dream of being an anchor and crack jokes on mike..! I dream of abusing a person who did something unethical according to me.. I dream of wearing cute clothes which i cant wear in reality.. I love to dream that people are fond of me..and miss me when i am not around.. I dream of my face looking cute when i am sleeping.. I dream of making my Nani (maternal Grandmother) really smart and independent again.. I dream of making my parents the happiest people in the world.. I dream of teaching kids who have turned beggars.. I dream of getting higher and higher in life.. I dream of being truthful and honest all my life and check the consequences..!! I dream of talking to the god directly who can guide me to the way ahead. AND so many other things.. 

WHAT YOU DREAM..??