NEW GIRL IN JBS..(MBA)..MY FIRST TRIMESTER..

Recently i saw ‘wake up sid’..I was touched by the article ‘new girl in the city’.. the matter in the article holds true for me too which says, in a new place you can have happiness, success, your dreams can come true but you can never feel the true happiness untill you have someone to share things..a true companion.. I have recently shifted to Ghaziabad..it has been 4-5 months here but the place is still new to me..i still fear going out alone.. (but two of my friends made this place really comfortable for me..) I am doing MBA from jbs, noida and my first trimester is over. When i took admission, i was sure that I’ll get along with people and adjust really well..i had confidence in myself(may be because i always feel the support of my friends and family). Initially i had no clue that how i will commute from my place to college..i was learning car but could never gain confidence over it and i wanted to avoid bus in any case(because i experienced the bad crowd and long time taken by the bus..huh :( ). I was looking for the car pool as an option. I always wished to have hostel but..hm.. BUT now i dont want a hostel.. :) I got in touch with a guy from my college through orkut who, along with his friend was also interested in car pool but i continued my search so that i could get a girl carpool partner also!(it is really difficult to trust guys!! ISNT IT!!?). And i am happy that i didnt find any fourth person.. BECAUSE,in no time..We three turned friends.. And a journey began.. My new college, new people (though everything in same colour-BLUE!!),new work load , new books ;everything began pulling me towards itself. I got totally engrossed into the new life. I began to feel fast shifts in my mood and i started feeling a lot of emotions. I liked the faculty and students around. AND THE NEW PROJECTS AND DIFFERENT GROUPS..it gave a tough and different experience of working with people you like and dislike..(but as i believe,tough people always make it).. The more i started communicating with students around, more i felt differences in opinion. It was totally irritating to talk to few.. I found few people who were still immature to talk to..and few i found totally mature with no humour or cuteness left in them!! But as we say ‘we gel with the people of our type’, i got a few with the same chemistry as mine :) . Initially, i faced adjustment problems (probably most of the students faced it). Everyday i used to miss of lovely old gold friends who gave me so much of love, care and respect (because, obviously i was not feeling same here). I learned to carry an 'i dont care' attitude for those who didnt deserve my attention and time. I missed my friends like anything. I started valuing them even more. Days were passing, i started enjoying my class, studies, the funny teachers and the CAR(car time was the most relaxing time during classes and the high learning time during exams--waoo!!) I was left with no time for my family and loved ones.. i got complains but did'nt do much about it..!! i started feeling guilty for being selfish but still i was enjoying my college!! New courses (in jbs, subjects=courses!! God knows why!! But it sounds kewl!!),new assignments took my sleep away..i got all the dark circles..!!uff.. and on the top of that every next person(not exactly every next person!) started saying me..u look so depressed, sleepy, sick, unhappy..!!huh!!(it was tough to survive with continuous comments and no compliments!) And i was wondering what exactly happened..!! Slowly i took control over myself..Realized that work is not a burden but fun..and i have to get away with that sad guilty feeling as well.. And the good times were back..i began to smile again.. And yes not to forget to mention about the few people around who really impressed me with their honesty, truthfulness, always ready to help behaviour and human nature. I was totally weak in commerce subjects such as economics, stats and accounts..and students actually taught me these subjects...!! i mean in mba..there still exists the class of people who are totally helping and not selfish..(because they taught me even when i was not their friend!). I will be always grateful to them. one of the best part..My "ACHIEVERS" group..the girls team..lunch hour..saturdays's food..the breaking news of the class..humour and BONDING.. They all made my first trimester simple and tension free. And the combined study at home during exams(earlier i never did combined study at home-i just love it!),fast revision in the car, those phones and messages(350 messages over in2-3 days!!),those bunks and movies.. and SHIPRA :)) SPECIAL THANKS TO MY FRIENDS(school and college) AND FAMILY..WHO ALWAYS SUPPORT ME LIKE ANYTHING..LOVE YOU ALL..ALWAYS BE THERE WITH ME.. ;) First trimester was no doubt special..And never ever forgetting(as the first love!) Because i met few true companions to share mba(and the feelings attached) with..

DO YOU DREAM..?

DO YOU DREAM?I DO. 

Daydreaming is so nice. You can dream of everything you want. You can just get into a different world. You can dream of yourself at any place, with anyone. 

You can dream of doing anything you ever wanted. It feels so good to be alone for a moment and spend time with yourself and just feel free, and fly away in the world of dreams.. 

I love talking..and there are many people I really love to communicate with..but I know it's not possible, so I dream of talking to them. 

I don't know how it starts but I just get lost in that dream talk. And then I just wish it to be all true.! I dream of talking to guys I really like. And it becomes a lovely story. I dream that some old friends have suddenly appeared in front of me..! Sometimes I dream, my old friends are coming with posters and hoardings to look for me. I dream of earning money and buy things.. I dream of coming running to my parents with a happy face and shout.." I have got, what I wanted" or anything like that. I dream of dancing as if no one is looking or judging me..on the roads..on the roof.. I just love getting lost in the songs..I love imagining myself in the songs.. I dream of convincing people of everything which is in my mind.. I love to dream about solving the problems of the people whom I know are suffering because of something.. When I am sad, I dream of my parents and friends holding my hand and taking me away from that sad environment.. I dream of walking alone or go somewhere away from everyone and everything.. I love to dream that I am pretty and everyone is noticing me.. I dream of doing breakdance and salsa..!! I dream of doing "puppet dance " and acting.. I dream of singing in a big auditorium full of people.. I dream of being an anchor and crack jokes on mike..! I dream of abusing a person who did something unethical according to me.. I dream of wearing cute clothes which i cant wear in reality.. I love to dream that people are fond of me..and miss me when i am not around.. I dream of my face looking cute when i am sleeping.. I dream of making my Nani (maternal Grandmother) really smart and independent again.. I dream of making my parents the happiest people in the world.. I dream of teaching kids who have turned beggars.. I dream of getting higher and higher in life.. I dream of being truthful and honest all my life and check the consequences..!! I dream of talking to the god directly who can guide me to the way ahead. AND so many other things.. 

WHAT YOU DREAM..??

my first gdpi..

I went for my group discussion and personal interview. It was my first experience of the same. I was confident till the last evening but since night could feel the butterflies in my stomach.
We gad to reach the college early in the morning, which meant, i should sleep early and wake up early.
But whole night, I could not sleep properly. I was getting up every next hour and looking at the time..!
Finally the time came when I had to get ready.
My parents accompanied me. We took the auto and at a particular place, waited for the college bus. This bus had to take us to the respective college.
I bought a newspaper at the bus stop so that i could check the headlines.( i was advised to do so..)
Finally the bus started. I didn’t want to eat anything but than i had tea and ate my breakfast in bus just because i wanted to sound louder in gd.
We reached the college and we were asked to sign an attendance page. I could not find my form number on the page(and suddenly I realized, my name was not on net but i just had the hard copy), but than someone advised me to check the front page(which i missed in a hurry..) and there i signed against my form number.
We entered the college...Parents were directed to the other side... And students towards the seminar hall.
I reached the seminar hall and entered confidently. I knew i was looking smart. :)
I occupied my seat..whereas round i could see many students who were present there to give me competition..!
I went to the washroom twice..And checked the mirror with smile and looked more confident and nice.. BUT these butterflies were disturbing me every now and than.
Suddenly, many final year students gathered in the hall to start the whole process.
I was a little shocked because there was no teacher present around but then presence of only students made me feel comfortable.
Opposite to my expectations, they started distributing sheets to us to write an essay.. And we were given a long topic.. (INDIA'S ANSWER TO OBAMA? WHO WILL BE THE OBAMA FOR INDIA,WHO WILL MARCH THE COUNTRY FORWARD)
We were given good 15 minutes, which were more than enough for me because i had nothing much to write.!
They gave us 10 minutes as break to have team or something and i could only think of loo :)
I was back and everyone else was too..
They started calling our names according to the group and panel number assigned to us.
They called a sardar first..i saw him..And a thought rushed into my mind .."He must be a good speaker. Who wont let anyone speak..God help his group mates.."
And suddenly i heard "RIKI!"
I though ohh! And smiled within..for being in the same group as him.
And we formed a group of 11 students. We all were passing smiles to each other, as if saying hi's and good luck'
and a girl in front of me asked ..'are you nervous?'..and i replied’ a bit'..she told me but i was really looking nervous!
We entered he room where a panel of two teachers was there to judge us.
We were given some important guidelines before starting a gd..and I can only remember " don’t let it become a fish market"
Our topic was "LIFE IS MIRROR"
someone started..Someone justified..i also entered the gd(with my hands shivering with nervousness) but i spoke okay..
Points were getting repeated..and i could think of no new dimension(which i realized at home..!)
The students who didn’t participated much in it, they were given extra opportunity..Like to conclude, summarize, add..etc.. so overall everyone spoke almost equally.
I was happy that sardar stud equal with all..
After 15 minutes..we were sent back to seminar hall..
While going upstairs, we all started talking..and asking "how was it..how was it".
No one was satisfied with the gd..but than no one could do anything.
In the seminar hall..seniors stared answering our queries..like placements, number of seats, fees, laptops, hostel, gym, beauty parlor!
and simultaneously, they were assigning group for pi.
A group having 5-6 students was sent for pi..and i was the part of this first group.(we were told, after pi gets over..we can return beck to our homes)
We went downstairs and waited outside the room.
to be continued..

When i was walking alone,i wished that i reach the end of the road. But when friends like you joined me, i wished the road never ends..

I am on my way to reach a lovely destination. I am being optimistic about my life..This is due to the very fact that good people around me have got that trust in me. They have given me that great confidence and have made me think positive all the time. They have supported me like anything.

I dont know what the future holds..but i simply believe that it will be all good. I didnt get good results but still afew believe that i'll get what i want.

My MUMMA..who firmly believes that i'll get something really good and i feel too relaxed after talking to her..

My PA..who always encouraged me to do my best and leave the rest..

My BROTHER..who takes all my burden on himself and keeps me away from worries...i feel,he has made my life so easy and wonderful that i can proudly say that ' i have a big brother'..

RAHUL..whom i call my life..who was there with me..and i am sure he'll be with me throughout my life..i dont how he manages with me..and tolerate all sorts of behaviours i show..!someone who is so caring,supportive,who knows me better than anyone else..if it wasnt him..life would have turned so difficult...i feel i live because he is with me..my ultimate strength..

MAYANK..the gennie..a friend,a counseller,a robot(when i want him to just listen and not speak at all!),a guy who proved me that god exists in humans..and he is one of those(may be the only one)..someone who was always there in my good and the bad times(mostly bad!)..an amazing,its difficult to define the relation i share with him..someone who is always with me..

HITESH..who encouraged me..cracked jokes..made me laugh and smile everytime we talked..wonderfull friend..a cute kiddu..lovely..

SHIKHA..who was constantly in touch..the only friend since 11 years..and for the lifetime..her support and those lovely messages which always works for me..sometimes i feel as if we are twins..with almost same nature,same feelings..scorpions..!

HIMANSHU..huh..i miss you..someone, i know, will be there whenever i'll need him..someone who taught me how to face problems in life..someone who guided me how to handle unexpected troubles..'time can never mend careless whispers of a good friend..'someone who wrote for me..'kabhi kabhi riki zindagi me koi apna lagta hai..'

SRISHTI..great exmaple of someone who never quits..someone who was with me..since long..particulary when i thought of cat..someone really swett and simple..someone who showed how one can change his life..someone i call my friend..

PRIYANKA..a friend..a friend for life..who was with me whenever i needed her..someone who knows me all..i just love you...you mean a lot for me..and iyou know it..

ADESH..cute cute cute..he was always good to me..a great friend..who supported me since the time i know him..someone who with his relaxed and easy answers dissolves my queries and tensions..someone with whom i share a lovely bonding..different from others..

KALPANA..sweet and innocent..who told me how good i am.!who gave me that respect and love which i'll keep with me all my life..

ESHAN..a friend..who didnt change with time..his goodness is constant or say increasing since the day we became friends..someone who made me believe that i deserve the best..someone who cared for me..its always good talking to him..someone i feel proud of..

SAURAV..i never knew after college he and i would turn good friends..thankyou(i know i know..no sorry,no thankyou...but stiil..)..someone who with his sweet nature..makes me smile..someone who stayed chilled out and relaxed..don..!

PRASHANT..he is really good..amazing..i mean really great..thankyou.....

TARUN SIR..when i took this decision to drop and prepare for MBA..he was someone who showed me the positive light..at that point of time i really needed someone who could convince me..that i was going the right way..and he was the one..

These are the people who played that significant role in my life.. the people i am sure would be my friends for lifetime.. the friends i value the most.. the buddies who were there in hardest times of my life.. Though it is impossible for me to write and express how important these people are for me..but..it is better that i save rest of my emotions and feelings in my heart..

In this journey i met few others..whom i wish to be friends with..always.. AASTHA..cute,lovely..the only person i met who keeps happy all the time..touchwood! It is not that her life is all fun..but it is beacuse she knows how to turn life in happy mode.. GAURAV..wonderful human..he is good not only to me but as a person..someone simple,sweet...with genuine emotions..he has created that respect for him in me.. RAYAZ..someone sensitive,emotional,really nice..

MOHIT..it is really good talking to him..i'll remember all those wonderful conversations we had..

THANKYOU FRIENDS FOR EVERYTHING.. YOU ALL HAVE MADE ME STRONG AND YOU HAVE REALLY BECOME MY STRENGTH..

'mumma'

This Earth was the same..sun was the same..life was moving ahead when i took a break..
i was pretty unsure about the future..i was fearing the every next day..and then i realized someone was with me..totally good..'pari'..mumma..
She talked to me,listened to me,encouraged me,loved me..
she was there when i needed her the most..her cherubic presence always made my day..
Having the breakfast together,reading the newspaper..
Everytime i used to ask her to talk to me,to sit with me..and she would leave all the work just to listen to me..
She was always there to hug me..and make me feel relaxed,to allay my pains..she made me smile everytime i was sad..
She trusted me..gave me whatever i asked for..she made me realize that i am beautiful..she gave me those beautiful tips 'do this do that'..
She ate those 'shapeless chapatis' made by me..and always encouraged me to do things in a better way..she beared with my irritating behaviour,always staying cool and calm..she always made be believe that i should work hard to get whatever i want..
She was purely honest and sweet..she accepted me as i am..she accepted my life beyond family..
She oiled my hairs and combed them whenever i felt like lazy..
She always cared for my pimply face..and kept suggesting 'how can i takecare of my health'
She has a beautiful heart and a pure soul..
While looking after us..she never thought of herself..
This is not enough of the writing..i am true fan of hers..
Just her smile and i feel like being at the top of the world..She is simply the best..yes, the best..mumma..
I wish i could be as good as she is..wish i could do something for her too..
I'll make sure that she is happy..

WE CAN MAKE OUR LIFE EASIER WITH A LITTLE CHANGE IN OUR PERSPECTIVE :)

Everyone thinks of changing the world

but no one thinks of changing himself.

It is not that i am all positive or not practical enough but it is just that i feel it is good to havemore than one view to look at things. Think of a three dimensional cube,we all know how to draw it but the one who look at it can see it in more than one way. In the same way if we look at small things in life in a positive way we can avoid small tensions. It is always good to be flexible. This certainly makes your life easier.
Here i am writing no new thing but a better view to the most common things we hear around.
A few of opinions ihave formed with my own experiences and the others,people around me made me realize that we can look at it in this way too.

1. IT OFTEN HAPPENS PEOPLE PROMISE US TO MEET ON A PARTICULAR DAY AND THEY FAIL TO DO SO AND THE WORST THING IS,THEY DON'T EVEN INFORM US.
we feel betrayed and we stop trusting that person. If we are very sensitive we feel really bad and most of the time keep it in our heart.
BUT if he or she is a friend,we can always think it in this way..' may he had a strong reason..and he didn't even informed..some really important thing must be there and we'll clarify it when we talk next'

2. WE OFTEN FEEL ALL PEOPLE AROUND ARE SELFISH , PARICULARY WHEN REACH AT HIGHER LEVELS IN LIFE( higher studies or jobs).
BUT all people can never be bad...how can God leave such a nice person like you surronded ny all bad people. If you are good,it becomes obvious few others will be good too..

3. WHEN A GOOD PHASE OF LIFE GETS OVER(such as a college life). IT IS GOOD TO MISS THOSE DAYS BUT ALWAYS HOPE FOR THE BETTER ONES. DONT GET HOOKED UP TO THOSE DAYS.
BUT do not cry because it is over but smile because it happened.

4.WHEN PEOPLE PART FROM EACH OTHER,THEY GET AN EGO. THAT WHO CALLS FIRST.YOU MISS OTHERS BUT YOU ALWAYS KEEP WAITNIG FOR THEIR CALL FIRST AND IF THEY DON'Y,YOU FEEL BAD.
BUT there should not be any ego guys. If you want to call,don't hesitate. Call the person. He may have that too..but you can always correct YOURSELF atleast!

5.PEOPLE OFTEN FEEL LIFE IS FULL OF PAINS(if not you..but i am sure you must have heard it many times from others)
BUT life is all about facing challenges not pains actually! Love life.

6.DO NOT BE FRIENDS WITH HIM/HER. YOU CANT TRUST HIM/HER.
BUT trust is always required if you get into any relation. You would not get hurt even if you put that trust willingly. Either trust him/her or never give name to that realtion( specially friends).
You can not say,he is a friend but i cant trust him.!

7.WHEN PEOPLE GET DEPRESSED AND SOUND SAD MOST OF THE TIMES,WE OFTEN FEEL 'YE TO AISA HI HAI..PARESHAN AATMA..NO USE TALKING TO HIM'
BUT if he is a friend..you can say that ways. you must know the reasond for his actions. Yoy cant leaving him saying 'ye to aisa hi hai'. Think after imagining yourself at his place and then you'll get better reasons. Instead of blaming him,you'll understand him and that makes feel good.

8.PEOPLE OFTEN FEEL LONELY.
BUT when you feel alone,you get an opportunity to know yourself, you get to spend time with yourself which is so difficult in the busy life.
MOREOVER you can never be alone..your close ones are always there. And when you feel their absence..come in light..look at your shadow..it is always their( avoid to stay in dark,when you feel low).

9. IT IS NOT ALWAYS THAT ONE THING IS RIGHT AND THE OTHER IS WRONG.
BUT the two or more than two things can be right too..we talk what we have experienced,others might have got a different experience.

hope these things could be of some help..you can share your personal experiences too..when you changed your perspective and started looking at things with a view better than others..

A PESSIMIST COMPLAINS ABOUT THE WIND;

AN OPTIMIST EXPECTS IT TO CHANGE;

THE REALIST ADJUSTS THE SAILS.

BREAKING NEWS

When i heard the news about the blasts at the crowdy Sarojini market in 2005( it was my birthday, and i was busy in my own celebrations),i took it as 'just another breaking news'.
Probably i was not mature enough to feel the pain of those who suffered. The very next day..i heard "we are strong enough and it wouldn't bring any change in the life and spirit oof the city" and this statement in the news channels actually made me feel good..( i do not know why..may be because i felt proud to be a delhiite,strong and full of life..!!)
And then the blasts in other major cities ..Ahmedabad,Bangalore,Gujarat and then 2008..DELHI again..( i wrote it in capital letters because being a capital..the city deserves this atleast.)..in the CP(also known as the heart of the city). This news certainly left us blank..not only i,but everyone was so worried( anyone could be here..you,your relatives..anyone..the most common place for a hangout). We just prayed prayed and prayed..we called every known person..
THEY planted a bomb even in the central park..i mean how could they..here people come to enjoy peace..crowd is young..here most couples come to spend time together..many of them come here even without informing their families..what about them..blasts in the capital in the most crowdy places..AND THESE LOOSERS ACTUALLY FEEL PROUD OF IT AND TAKE THE RESPONSIBILTY THE VERY NEXT DAY..I MEAN WHY..!!??
People are already tensed in their lives.They already have enough of problems..natural calamities,diseases,accidents..(killing for revenge or something).We already have a lot many ways to die and now these BOMB BLASTS..from nowhere you get killed or loose a body part or get some mental affect.
Though city shows"we dont get affected through all this"..This may be true,but what about them who suffer actually..
When i thought THESE LOOSERS will take a break..i heard another BREAKING NEWS.."BLAST IN MEHARAULI"..I mean WHAT!!?? They just came on their bike,left a packet and ran..SUCH AN OPEN ACT OF CRIME and the little boy who touched that packet..we all know what happened to him..
Sometime before also these things were happnening,but now they occur on a daily basis. Either a bomb is discovered and diffused safely or people die for no reason.

TO CONVINCE A SMOKER, NOT TO SMOKE

TO CONVINCE A DRINKER, NOT TO DRINK

TO CONVINCE A NON-VEGETARIAN TO TURN VEGETARIAN

AND THE WORST..

TO CONVINCE A BOMBER NOT TO BLAST..

They have their own reasons to argue..and continue..

Few things have become impossible or life taking tasks..I AM HATING IT.